The Mirror from Snow White

I remember watching "Snow White" as a child, and being afraid of the witch/stepmother in it. She was mean and powerful and if things weren't going her way, she found a way to get what she wanted. To a person stuck in the "victim" cycle, she was just the embodiment of all the "mean" people out there.

Now, as an adult, I find myself (almost) sympathizing with her. I have spent my life "looking in the mirror" and having my family, friends, counselors, etc. tell me I am smart, pretty, a good person, etc. but I still see an evil person. Then it seems like just as I start to believe what they are saying, the "magic mirror" tells me I am no longer "the fairest". I am not quite as good or as worthy as I need to be.

Although I would never stoop to sending a woodsman to kill the thing or person standing in the way of me being seen as a good person again, I still find myself frustrated that there is no one who is loyal enough to do it. I find myself feeling as the wicked stepmother must have when she realized the woodsman had tricked her. She could trust no one.

I wouldn't "kill" or put anyone down in order to raise myself up, but there are times that I feel as the Stepmother must have when she realized Snow White was "perfect" and that she never would be. I feel like something was taken away from me that was supposed to be mine, and I don't know how to get it back.

I feel like I can be the nicest, most obedient, most loyal person, and because my "mirror" shows an evil person, I will never really be "good". In the meantime, there are people out there who look in the mirror and see "Snow White", so if they make a mistake here and there, it is okay, cuz they are, and always will be, Snow White.

They expect to be treated well, so they are. I expect to be treated like someone evil, and guess what...I eat the poisoned apple, every day.